If you saw my morning routine, you might think I’m slightly weird.
I wake up and brew my coffee (or tea, depending on how jittery I’d like to be that day). I read some inspirational material, do a quick mediation, or listen to a YouTube video of crashing waves, rain or birds. Then, I pick up my journal and proceed to reframe all the terrible, negative thoughts I’ve already had in the first 20 minutes of waking up by writing down positive affirmations.
Simply put, I’m a warrior for my own happiness. I treat it like a full time job. In the words of Elizabeth Gilbert, “You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestation of your own blessings.”
And lately, this has been especially true, because I’ve been miserable.
Now, I’m a person that’s careful with my words.
I believe thoughts and words create your reality.
But I also believe that sometimes life just throws you a shit hand, and it’s OK to admit – even for a fleeting moment – “Things are hard. And I’m dealing. But things are hard.”
About two months ago my partner Andy and I sold everything we own, packed our bags, and set off on the road. To travel. To work. To do something meaningful and beautiful and totally unconventional.
It was a decision we made after my partner’s mom was finally in the clear after a scary cancer diagnosis earlier this year.
Phew, we thought.
Glad that’s over with. Oh yeah – and life? Let’s go LIVE it.
Two weeks into our trip – into our newly appreciated freedom and refreshed outlook on the preciousness of life – we found out his dad has cancer, too.
The only joke to make here being that his parents love each other so much they do everything together. Even cancer.
God bless ’em.
So life, as we know it, is somewhat insane right now.
Questions about the future, where we’re going to live, what we’re going to do, and how we’re going to manage everything are keeping us awake at night. Questions about what it means to love, to live life fully, and to make sacrifices are testing us daily. The universe is being pretty funny.
Yet in the midst of all the chaos, my business is thriving and I’m reaching a level of success I never thought possible – especially not given the stress we’ve been under. How is this happening? has been the question on my mind lately. How am I managing all this and actually doing better than ever in my business?
And it finally hit me the other day: When I’m miserable, I know I’m on the right path.
Through all the challenges lately, the one thing that has been saving my sanity is my work.
It’s the one thing I’ve turned to, over and over again, finding refuge in my to-do list. In my next project. In my calls with clients that light me up + make my heart happy.
Being miserable has actually shown me that I’m on the right path, because the pain is alleviated by the passion for what I do.
Despite everything, I still get to crawl out of bed every morning and make a living doing what I love. Things are still flowing and expanding. Growth is still happening.
And that’s how you know you’re on the right path, in your life, in your business. Hopefully in both.
That even in conflict and stress, your work is what you love.
And frankly, it doesn’t matter if you’re making millions doing it, or just raking in a nice side income for your shoe shopping addiction.
It just matters that you recognize how lucky you are.
It matters that you acknowledge what truly drives you in this world - that you bow down in front of it and say thank you.
Thank you for saving me. Thank you for showing me there is a place of refuge.
I’m writing this from a cozy cabin in the woods – a place we’re renting for the time being. And despite it being temporary, despite not really knowing what’s next, despite interrupted plans, and fear, and juggling the obstacles curently at hand, I’m surrounded by beauty. I can smell the fresh pine trees. I see wildlife. There is silence.
And I’m grateful. Grateful for even my misery, because the pain reveals the necessary cure.
If you’re wrestling with what path you should be on, take the one that you know will save you when life gets hard. The one where you’re living your dreams and never allowing regrets.
It’s cliché, but life IS short.
P.S. If your dream involves finally building a passion-based business, I’m your girl. I’ve got a brand new program coming your way soon. Make room in your heart. Clear the space. It’s time for you to do this.